6 months old

Today at precisely 10:25pm my precious son Joshua will turn 6 months old. I catch myself thinking about ALL the time that I have lost with him. But, then I catch myself and say, "I may not have seen him do so and so first but, I have a LIFETIME of other firsts for him." Wait I just thought of something for the VERY first time...have I REALLY lost all of his firsts? I know down in Guatemala he is changing everyday and doing different things but, when I experience whatever it may be it will be a FIRST...MY first. So, today I say instead of looking back at what I may have missed I will look forward to what I will see...what I will experience for the FIRST time.

Not only do I think about Joshua turning 6 months old today I also think about his birth mom. The AMAZING woman that brought him into this world. Joshua was extremely fortunate to stay with his birth mom for 3 weeks. But, after she realized she couldn't take care of him she did what was BEST for her child...she gave him up. If I could speak to her today I would tell her THANK YOU!!! Thank you for LOVING this child with all your heart....thank you for giving him a chance at a better life.

To my LORD and Savior on this your child's 6 month birthday THANK YOU for allowing us to be the parents of this wonderful child. I am still humbled in the fact that out of all the people in this world you chose us. Again, I say THANK YOU!!!!

Joshua:
Not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts and prayers. I ache to hold you in my arms but, find comfort that one day GOD will send you home with us forever. Until that time comes I will continue to LOVE you and WAIT for you!! I LOVE you ALL the way to heaven and back. You are my precious son.

Love always,
Mommy